I was born wild-eyed with a head full of hair…

The creative mind is far from stable.
Laughter at Oneself is Crucial

I was born with my eyes open and a head full of hair. Today, near-sighted and bald, I can only laugh and wonder about the things my young eyes did see.

After fifty years of trying to figure out who I am and what my purpose is, It appears that I have no idea what I am doing, but that’s ok. Neither do a lot of us.

In February of 2019, MRIs revealed some abnormalities in my brain and an inner ear imbalance, leaving me with chronic headaches and balancing issues. Neurologists are not sure of the cause and waiting for more testing. For now, my only outlet is self-healing. I work from home part-time and do meditation and yoga daily; along with cannabis have dropped my headaches from 20-25 a day to 3-5 a day.

Preparing for a new norm

I have to limit my time working in front of a computer these days. The longer I work, the more headaches I will have. So I find myself stepping away from being on a computer the majority of the day and spending more time on other interests.
Meditation and yoga, journal writing, and photography. I have noise-canceling headphones that help block out the background noise while I am outside.

This blog is my form of self-therapy. I will be writing about my experiences during meditation and some of the things I have seen and felt.
Yes, I said to see.
I have always had a creative mind. I wrote my first story when I was 8. I lost a lot of that creativity over the years, but now it is beginning to come back. This blog is just one outlet to share my experiences with the world.

Please Note: I am in no way an expert or trained in any form of spiritual teaching or meditation practices. The meditation and yoga I do vary and do not follow any particular practice. These are solely my own interpretations of events during my meditations, cloud gazing, or simply pondering that pop into my damaged brain. Your experiences will be unique to you and no one else.